We had a lot of rain this past weekend.
I was down for most of the weekend trying to get well when I noticed this little guy hanging out on our hummingbird feeder.
This is the first red hummingbird I have seen! I am kind of in serious like with him/her/it.
I spent most of my day bundled up curling with these guys.
They make me smile, I wanted to share!
Monday, March 3, 2014
Welcome if your joining in on the March addition of the Simple Woman's Day Book.
For Today - 3/3/14
Outside my window...61 Degrees and a little Cloudy. We survived California Storm Watch 2014. We had 4 days of constant Rain and Drizzle which is something our ground really needed. I’m not quite sure when we reached our saturation point, but our back yard is looking very wet!
I am thinking...about my relationship with my God. We watched a show this weekend where a character who was a Therapist mentions that people who feel the need to control things often feel out of control on the inside. I felt a ping of guilt as I hear this. I am really struggling to connect with God and feel a bit lost in who I am and what he wants me to be doing with this life of mine. I feel like I am focusing on every little thing that I can control, which is not what I should be focusing all of my attention on.
I am thankful...for Ryan. He has taken the very best care of me over the last 7 days. This flu bug has hit me harder than past years. He has: brought food in, helped fold and put away laundry, ran errands including a 2 hour trip to the Doctor on Saturday morning, cleaned the kitchen and piles of Kleenex, and has been extra protective of me keeping me down resting for the entire weekend. He is my Hero
In the kitchen...We are getting back to our clean eating this week. We have diverted a bit with this flu bug rocking in our world, but are excited to get back on track.
I am wearing...Black Slacks, Black Sweater with Black and White top, Black Shoes, Face Makeup but no eye makeup. I came down with an Eye Infection with everything else…..
I am creating...St. Patrick’s Day Decorations! Thank you very much Pinterest – Post to follow
I am reading...Fierce Women by Kimberly Wagner , Lots of Candles by Anna Quindlen , History of a Pleasure Seeker by Richard Mason, and Continuing Whispers of Hope by Beth Moore
I am hoping...to be well soon. This flu bug has got me just not feeling well. I am pretty over it.
I am looking forward to...My cousin’s wedding towards the end of the month. We are heading to Mesa Arizona. We are going to attend a spring training game for the Angel’s while we are in town. I can’t help but admit that I am also excited to have a yummy meal at Steak and Shake while we are there.
I am learning…to play guitar! I am three weeks into my first set of classes and I am loving it! Finding time to practice is harder than I thought, but I am focusing on keeping it a priority
Around the house... We are continuing the work on refreshing our bedroom with paint, carpeting, and new furniture.
A favorite quote for today...
A few plans for the rest of the week: Doctor Appointment on Tuesday, Guitar Lessons on Thursday, Date Night on Friday, Work on our Bedroom on Saturday, Day of Church and Rest on Sunday
A peek into my day...
Friday, February 28, 2014
I am joining in with Emily Freeman for Lets share what we've learned February.
1. I’ve learned 5 chords, and something called a Power Cord in the three weeks since Guitar Class started! I have also learned that my fingers although a small part of my body can create great pain when practicing or playing for that matter.
I have also had to acknowledge that as many times as I went to battle with my Dad on music theory and understanding during my growing up years, he really does have an amazing grasp on it! However, it’s a little uncomfortable for me to be stuck between his version of a C cord and my Guitar Instructors version. How many fingers and strings does it take to make a C cord??….This girl may never know.
I am looking forward to playing my first praise song soon!
2. I found a new way to interact with books and a new Author that I enjoy. I just love audible.com. I have a pretty insane reading plan going on, and just when I was set with what I wanted to read for the next few months, I find more books that capture my mind….Shiny Object Syndrome you all! BIRD! Being able to listen to books in the car when I am driving around on my own, allows me to totally multitask my reading!
Recently I came across Linda Lafferty’s The Bloodletter's Daughter, thanks to Amazon and their wonderful “I think you should read” emails. I just love how the epic Amazon cloud knows me so well! This piece of historic fiction captured me mind, body and soul. The story of the Hapsburg Court in Prague in the 1600’s was a whole new world to me, and I dove in. A bastard Prince, a beautiful young girl, a blood-letter, a coded book of wonder, and obsession and tragedy who wouldn't enjoy spending a few hours in the world Lafferty creates.
After recovering from the final chapters of The Bloodletter’s Daugher, I found myself wishing for more stories of her’s to read, so I started The House of Bathory this week. I am finding that this tale crossing centuries and miles has again captured my imagination.
3. I learned that Girl Scout Cookies are of the Devil. This isn't the first time I've learned this, I am glad to have multiple opportunities’ to let it stick. I don’t know what more to say about that
4. I learned from Ryan that President Obama is trying to protect a two inch fish, or well a whole endangered species of them. This is how Ryan finds ways to make Politics Interesting. Just add some sea creatures to the mix and I am all ears! I don’t quite know how to feel about this. I was raised with an environment interest especially around sea creatures. I am really very taken with just about anything that lives in the ocean. But I wonder how things like this make it across our President’s desk. Especially when there are so many other environmental and life changing issues to be sorted out.
5. I learned that with enough rain our pool will overflow… Thanks to the Storm of the year hitting Southern California right now! I also learned that my mother in law is a very patient woman, despite her daughter in laws silly questions. I'm a pretty lucky girl!
Friday, February 21, 2014
We had a play date with our God Babies tonight!
This may not look like rest to most people, and we were a bit tired after it was all said and done, but we had a blast! These two add so much joy to our world! We love seeing them change as they grow!!! Love Love Love them!
I am a reject. Is that too discouraging, too hopeless, too real?
I can remember in my teenage years and early 20’s knowing that getting pregnant before I was married could be the worst sin I could possibly commit. So I didn’t.
Now after almost 7 years of married life for multiple reasons, we are still childless.
I feel like in this most basic cultural standard, as a woman, I am a reject.
As I look back to my younger years, I was so naive in my dreams. I was so sure that I would have children. I would be lying to myself if I didn’t admit that this was still my dream. We rejoice with our family and friends as they create new life! We love that we have been included to celebrate in birthdays, showers, and announcements! I cherish the opportunities I have had to document these moments with my Camera .
As each month passes and “Aunt Flow” arrives, I realize just how important having a child is to me!
I’ve written a few times about this struggle here on my little piece of blogdom. Although I don’t always want to focus on this struggle here, it is a very real part of my life story. You can find out more about this journey here , here , and here.
I am currently in a cycle of change on multiple fronts. I put together a pretty crazy mind map of my goals for 2014 which has helped me focus on areas of my life that needed direction and action. One of these areas is my health. You can read about the eating and exercise challenge that I am currently working here, and some recent results here.
When I complete the 24 day challenge, I am going to start drinking this Fertility Smoothie in the mornings for breakfast! I am hoping that this with weight loss and diabetes control will to regulate my hormones.
Another big area of focus for me is adding “Rest" to my life. You can read about the “One Little Word” workshop I am participating in here. I am actively finding ways to invite moments of Rest into my busy world. This is a weird phenomenon for me. I come from a family of origin that with good intention plans fun and productivity into every spare moment available. This was a way of life for me, and although it’s not a bad thing, it can add emotional pressure that turns into physical stress which is not good for my body. After experiencing cycles of complete exhaustion and guilt laden inactivity with days of manic multitasking and finished to-do lists, I am on a voyage to find a place where finding rest is valued and a priority amongst the other priorities I have. Using Capture Your 365 am documenting something every day that gives me rest, emotionally, physically, spiritually, or mentally!
I am also focusing on my relationship with my Lord. He is the author and creator of life and family! I am working to daily find a connection with him, to strengthen the relationship I have with Prayer and Praise. In the midst of feeling rejected by our culture, I find myself blessed to be loved by the King of Kings. There is peace that comes from stopping and becoming whole in the Love of my Lord. He alone restores my soul, and in my darkest moments gives me hope.
I am adding the book Hannah's Hope by Jennifer Saake to my reading list in the next couple months. Her book focuses on seeking God’s heart in the middle of infertility. We are also going to be attending Choose Joy in May. I pray that I can use both of these as opportunities to find comfort and harmony with what God’s plan is for my life as we struggle with infertility. We are fully onboard with adopting into our family as well. Doors continue to open and close as we walk this path, and we pray to see God’s direction clearly.
This is the hard stuff of life; it lurks in the shadows of the essence of who I am! It flavors my days and nights. I know that my God is big enough to handle this! Prayer, searching, and action continue, and with faith I confidently walk forward with hope that our family will become 3. My God is a lover of the Rejects, and has been proven faithful to those who seek him and his will in their lives.
If you too are on this crazy path of infertility I would love to hear from you.
Thursday, February 20, 2014
Guitar Class #2
It feels strange to use my brain for music again. Its a place of vulnerability and passion that I haven't tapped into for a very long time. After practicing and debating chord structure with my Dad I went to class feeling a bit nervous that maybe I wasn't playing correctly and wouldn't be prepared!
The class went really smooth and we learned two more cords. There were moments where I was able to switch between cords without much thought, which gave me rest.