MY Bra…
That’s right…my underwire decided that it wanted break out and turn into a horrendous torture device….
After trying to tame the beast with thick Band-Aids to pad the poking and skin ripping barbs of steal….I wound up with bleeding slices for fingers…
Note to self….don’t eat an orange the day after….you go to war with your undergarments…. Just thought I would share the good news...
My fingers are burning like there is no tomorrow….Why oh Why…does this stuff always happen to me…..
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Waiting for the machine to pick up….
Do you ever wonder what it would be like if God could use the Phone?
We have an answering machine at our house, and it works hard. If we are away or home, we let it do its job. Some people call it “screening” calls, we call it Sanity. In the midst of our busy lives, sometime we just don’t want to talk to people. Sometimes it’s just not a good time, sometimes it’s a telemarketer, sometimes it’s someone were avoiding. When we are home, we let the phone ring and wait for the talking to begin, and then make the decision if we want to pick up the line. It’s a nice buffer, don’t you think? It’s a nice way to take control and determine how the next moments of our life will be spent.
What if the voice on the line was God? Would it be a comfort? Would it be one of those calls I wouldn’t pick up? Would it make the decisions easier?
These last couple of weeks, God has been pulling at my heart strings. I mean REALLY rearranging the meat and potatoes of life. There are so many times I just want to say…. “Bri’s not in right now leave a message and she will call you back….BEEEEEEEP!!!!!!” That’s a really uncomfortable thing to admit right now, knowing that my Creator, My King has done nothing but provide for me, and yet I continue to be terribly prideful and wonderfully human.
My weight has become the bill collector in my life. You know the guy who says…if you just worked harder, were more disciplined, saved more diligently, I wouldn’t be calling… Can I help it if I am really good at Saving Calories??? My doctors believe that my weight is a direct link to my inability to have babies. Isn’t that just a slap in the face and heart? In the back of my mind I ponder thoughts like “Eat to Live, not Live to Eat” or “It’s just a half hour of exercise, do you know how many half hour’s there are in a day?”, or “If you can’t control what you weigh, how do you expect to set examples for children, and raise them well”…..can you see where this thinking leads me? Straight for the nearest mozzarella stick or french-fry.
Which leads me to the next caller, the Guilt-Filled Volunteer Support Call: You know these calls, the Local Fire Department, The next “would be Governor (Or Govenator, as we like to call him in California)”, the local charity, or Girl Scout. From the worry, pain, and need of a child in our home my heart brings me to thoughts of Adoption. God has blessed me with a husband who feels called to adopt a child and for most of my life, I have heard the call. However, as we all know….Hearing and Doing….are two very different things…. We received an information packet from a Christian Adoption Agency in the mail a few weeks ago. We read thru the information, and have prayed about it, but haven’t done much else. I have been plagued with indecision and self doubt. How do you make such a life changing decision?
As the weeks have gone by, another message has started to blink. It’s a message from one of those special people in your life. They come in all shapes and sizes, in all types of relationships, they are sometimes family, and often times friends. The call came from my Dad. He has proposed that we go on a mission trip together with our church. It’s down to Guadalajara Mexico, in the end of January. My Mom doesn’t feel terribly called to go, and my husband can’t take time off of his new job. I have the vacation time saved, I know God will provide the means, and it would be a wonderful opportunity serving God’s children next to an amazing man, that I am honored to call my Father, yet I am having a terrible time finding the faith to say yes. It makes my heart ache to think of it. What is wrong with me?
As tempted as I am to push the delete button, and continue on my current path, I know that God is wooing my heart. I know that he is continuing to work in my life and the lives around me. I know that all I have to do is listen to the call, and walk out in faith. Anyone need to go for a walk??
We have an answering machine at our house, and it works hard. If we are away or home, we let it do its job. Some people call it “screening” calls, we call it Sanity. In the midst of our busy lives, sometime we just don’t want to talk to people. Sometimes it’s just not a good time, sometimes it’s a telemarketer, sometimes it’s someone were avoiding. When we are home, we let the phone ring and wait for the talking to begin, and then make the decision if we want to pick up the line. It’s a nice buffer, don’t you think? It’s a nice way to take control and determine how the next moments of our life will be spent.
What if the voice on the line was God? Would it be a comfort? Would it be one of those calls I wouldn’t pick up? Would it make the decisions easier?
These last couple of weeks, God has been pulling at my heart strings. I mean REALLY rearranging the meat and potatoes of life. There are so many times I just want to say…. “Bri’s not in right now leave a message and she will call you back….BEEEEEEEP!!!!!!” That’s a really uncomfortable thing to admit right now, knowing that my Creator, My King has done nothing but provide for me, and yet I continue to be terribly prideful and wonderfully human.
My weight has become the bill collector in my life. You know the guy who says…if you just worked harder, were more disciplined, saved more diligently, I wouldn’t be calling… Can I help it if I am really good at Saving Calories??? My doctors believe that my weight is a direct link to my inability to have babies. Isn’t that just a slap in the face and heart? In the back of my mind I ponder thoughts like “Eat to Live, not Live to Eat” or “It’s just a half hour of exercise, do you know how many half hour’s there are in a day?”, or “If you can’t control what you weigh, how do you expect to set examples for children, and raise them well”…..can you see where this thinking leads me? Straight for the nearest mozzarella stick or french-fry.
Which leads me to the next caller, the Guilt-Filled Volunteer Support Call: You know these calls, the Local Fire Department, The next “would be Governor (Or Govenator, as we like to call him in California)”, the local charity, or Girl Scout. From the worry, pain, and need of a child in our home my heart brings me to thoughts of Adoption. God has blessed me with a husband who feels called to adopt a child and for most of my life, I have heard the call. However, as we all know….Hearing and Doing….are two very different things…. We received an information packet from a Christian Adoption Agency in the mail a few weeks ago. We read thru the information, and have prayed about it, but haven’t done much else. I have been plagued with indecision and self doubt. How do you make such a life changing decision?
As the weeks have gone by, another message has started to blink. It’s a message from one of those special people in your life. They come in all shapes and sizes, in all types of relationships, they are sometimes family, and often times friends. The call came from my Dad. He has proposed that we go on a mission trip together with our church. It’s down to Guadalajara Mexico, in the end of January. My Mom doesn’t feel terribly called to go, and my husband can’t take time off of his new job. I have the vacation time saved, I know God will provide the means, and it would be a wonderful opportunity serving God’s children next to an amazing man, that I am honored to call my Father, yet I am having a terrible time finding the faith to say yes. It makes my heart ache to think of it. What is wrong with me?
As tempted as I am to push the delete button, and continue on my current path, I know that God is wooing my heart. I know that he is continuing to work in my life and the lives around me. I know that all I have to do is listen to the call, and walk out in faith. Anyone need to go for a walk??
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
The Simple Woman's Daybook - November 9, 2009
FOR TODAY…11/09/09
Outside my window...Cloudy but Warm.
I am thinking...about God’s plan for my life. He is tugging on my heart strings in a couple areas, two of which are completely out of my box, but not out of his plan. Making the choice to move where he leads, because I certainly don’t want to go anywhere without him.
I am thankful for...my Dad. We went to Breakfast this morning and enjoyed some time talking and feeling. He is such a blessing.
From the kitchen...Pumpkin Bread!!! After all it is one of my favorite fall treats!
I am wearing...lots of black today! Black top, pants, and shoes!
I am creating...Fleece Shirts/vests for the puppies. Specifically with Denver Broncos fleece….I am after all one of their biggest fans.
I am going...to take a nap at lunch today!
I am reading...Katherine, by Anya Seton – It’s a great classic.
I am hoping...that God will give us some direction on some decisions in our near future.
I am hearing...the sound track of Wicked in my head….I listened to it on my way in to work this morning….and now its stuck in there!!!..... “Popular…you want to be Popular”…
Around the house... we have dirty puppies, dirty clothes, and dirty dishes…I have some cleaning to do.
One of my favorite things...Coming home to happy puppies!
A few plans for the rest of the week: Housework on Tuesday, Date Night on Friday, Dinner and Movies with the Boys on Saturday, Church on Sunday. It’s a relatively slow week!!
Here is picture for thought I am sharing...
Our Cute PuppiesSpecial Thanks and Blessings to The Simple Woman for hosting this post.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
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