Step into my brokeness...

I feel blessed by my Jesus.

I feel blessed by those he has put in my path.

I feel blessed to call them friends.

Ecclesiastes 4 – For if they fall, the one will life up his fellow; but woe to him that is alone when he falls, and hath not another to life him up.

As we walk down this path of adoption to grow our family, I have felt very lonely.  

I was reminded of this specifically this past weekend. I met a new sister in Christ as I volunteered at our Women’s Bibles Study table between services.  She asked if I had kids. I replied with my canned response, “Not yet, were working on that. But we have Puppies”.  You see that response protects me. It’s the positive spin that leaves me an out to talk about the 4 legged furry creatures in my life, instead of admitting the hurt and failure that I feel to a stranger.

A few minutes went by, we talked to other ladies and then she leaned over again and asked… “Can I ask you a personal question”.  In most circumstances I would have been a little apprehensive about this question, but I thought and replied, “Sure why not!” In the next few moments I found myself profoundly thankful that I had agreed to volunteer .  Her question was personal both from her story and mine. “Are you having a hard time conceiving?” As time went by I learned that she had adopted, and was an advocate for adopting. She was open, sweet, and warm and more than willing to share with me. She shared hope, and a since of sisterhood. I once again realized that I wasn’t alone, not only because I belong to a God who loves me, but because he has a very unique way of aligning me with those who have walked the path before me.

Psalm 71:14 –But I will hope continually, and will praise thee yet more and more.

I am thankful today. Thankful for the new friend I get to add to my circle. Thankful for her wiliness to step into my brokenness and share her hope. Thankful for a Lord who understands my heart like no other.